Hi, Jesus

Jesus, I'm writing this letter to You because I think I will express what I'm feeling in a better way. And You will answer me. Well, first of all, I want to apologize to You for being such a coward. I know You are coming back but I haven't done much to avoid the eternal punishment. Yeah, I'm going to the church (btw, it's really good) and I know that I've changed a lot compared to who I was. However, I know I didn't give my life to You. The truth is that I 'm scared. I'm scared of doing this because I don't know if I can do it. Can You understand? I'm scared because I have to deny myself, my dreams and wishes to serve You. But I know what christians say. They say that once you give your life to You it's a pleasure to serve You and all you want to do is to be with You. And I believe that. So I hope the Holy Spirit will guide me to this: the pleasure to deny myself so I can be a new person with You because all I want is to live the eternal life with You. To see Your smile. To see You happy. I will wait. In the meantime, protect and be with me, Jesus. And God, wait for me, for my family and friends. Please, wait.